Why??

I always expected you to ask why. But you didn't. You always don't. So from this second onwards, i am not going to expect you to ask why anymore.. I am at home right now with dad. Because i have to study. I am so sad that i cannot go to grandmother's house, where everyone will be there with lots of food, because my grandmother will be praying. Arghhhhhhhhhh......... I hope all this stupid studying will end soon..

(Flower.. Take good care of yourself ya.. Don't think -ve stuffs and pls pls dun bother too much of others actions or words..
05S71 mug hard!!)

Having jitters..

Read lily's blog, she was saying that teachers do read our blogs.. I think so too.. So i shall not talk too much and say names.. =X Anyway, i am feeling very nervous now.. Because my mum is going to meet my CT later.. I can kind of predict what my CT is going to say. But thinking of going back to school and meeting my CT really scares me loads.. I tried hard to study, but this mood is getting me no where. I cannot even write my compo.. Haix haix.. Feel like going into my world.. I am having jitters about my CT.. HELP!!

I just hate my younger sis.. Her attitude sucks to the hell man.. The way she talk to me and treat me.. I really cannot stand it any longer.. I wonder why my parents are treating her so nice. She does not even deserve it. Maybe i myself is guilty too in treating her well.. Later i going watch her school concert with sis.. Hope it will be nice and allow me to relax a little..

STRESS

How have my life been?? It is like hell. I am so stress that i am having sleepless nights and i actually can have nightmares of my CT.. Yups. Don't know why, i am very scared of my CT and i think he has some dislike of me. I think i am going to be crazy soon. Anyway, i am mugging hard now. But there are tonnes of homework to be finished. Its like piles and piles every week. I got my prelim 1 results slip today. And there is this "failed" there. If my parents are going to see it, they will just kill me. I haven't tell them about my results. They are going to meet my CT a day after.. I am still thinking on how to tell them about my results. My parents value marks loads. I know what will be their actions and reactions after they see my marks. The scene has been playing and playing over and over again in my head.. God, help me.. 97 more days to A levels..

School Holiday

Today is Innova JC polling day holiday. Yups. What kind of holiday when i have to go back school for my a level chinese oral. Yups yups. I just reach home after having my oral. I guess it was not too bad. I tried my very best not to get too nervous. And tell you what. I seriously hate junjie. He sucks to the hell man. He was like keep telling me to read badly, because i am the one right in before him. Then he started to like make us feel nervous when it was our turn. He also laugh at me when i mis-pronounced a word while i talking to them before it was my turn. Anyway, don't let him spoil my mood. Although i didn't blog for a week, i am not going to blog about everyday i missed. Because school days are normal days. I just want to talk about yesterday. Yesterday i went watch superband recording with gerald, lily, ying and mel.. It was dam dam dam nice. I LOVE it!! Hehe. My milo peng performed well and is to the infinity best! Tata~

Superband tix..

Guess who's legs are these..

Jestyn make me this dam nice magazine cover..
I love it very much!! Thx thx. =)

Updates

What i did during the weekend?? Basically is stay home and study.. Haha. Do i sound like a nurd?? =X I went out on saturday to buy a new phone. And i think i should update you guys that my phone was stolen on wednesday. Yups. STOLEN!! My favourite VS2.. :'( I bought sony ericsson z530i. The phone is average. One thing i don't like about it is the camera. I still miss my VS2. Anyway, my elder sis paid for my phone, which is 300 plus. I feel so bad.. My sis also bought me something on sunday, to encourage me for my poor results. I really love my sis so much!! Today is normal school day.. Nothing much to talk about.. I have been wondering why i am so affected by you. You seem to be more and more like a stranger to me. I lost you once. Am i going to lose you again?? Off to watch superband le.. Tata~










My New Phone







This is what my sis bought for me.

More results:
Maths Paper 2: 71/100
GP Paper 1: 26/50

My instincts

My instincts are always so true and this time round, my instincts tell me so that things are not right.. Something which i will never want it to happen will happen soon. But, i cannot stop it right. It's a matter of people's choice. I just hope that they will be happy. Yups. went back to school today. Kind of bullied Shawn.. =X School is fine. Normal lessons. I am happy today. Because i saw my secondary school friends early in the morning. Weiyi and Disheng!! Haha.. I miss you guys so so very much.. Can i hope that you all will be late for school everyday, so that i get to meet you both every morning?? Hehe. I had a good chat with "mami" during gp lesson today too.. Mami.. We must jia you together.. I hope that i can get a new phone during this week end.. Tata~

More Results:
General Paper 2: 19/50
Chinese 'A' paper 2: 54/100

(P.S. Lover, i remember that i will always drop you a message in my blog.. Hee. It has been a long time since i wrote you one. I miss the days when we both went crazy together.. I miss you too..)

Feeling Better

I didn't go to school today.. Want to know the reason why, then ask me.. =P Yups. I am feeling better after one day of rest. I have kind of sort out my thoughts and am not that lost anymore.. Just that i am still very stress.. Will go school tomorrow. Because i have to go settle maths things.. Oh ya.. For all who read my blog, please sms me to let me know your contact no.. Thx. Tata~

Hell day

There are things which happened and i don't wish to talk about. Just pray hard that i have the strength to go through this ordeal.. I don't want to think about what's going to happen next. I have no feelings anymore. The only thing i can do is having tears flowing and flowing.. When will they stop?? I don't know.. I will be brave.. I shall be brave.. Is being brave still a cure for me??

Mama's birthday

Today, lots of things happened.. In less than 12 hours, so much things had happened. I am really greatly affected by them. 1st thing in the morning, i woke up late at 7am. I rushed like mad and set a record by getting out of the house in 10minutes.. In school, nothing more but misery. 1st paper i got back is chinese 'a' paper 1 part 2. And i actually failed it. I think i am the only one who failed.. I am real sad. 2nd paper, chinese 'a' paper 1 part 1. No better. Next thing is about physics. When Mr Teo came in for tutorial lesson, his face was real black, and everyone can predict that we did badly.. Ya. We did badly. Mr teo kind of "scolded" us.. during civics lesson, he asked me and lily to see him outside the hall, he want to talk to us. That's when i can confirm that i scored very badly for my physics. (only can pray that i will not get an F) Mr Teo want to have physics lessons with me and lily every monday.. Maths, my favourite subject. I am real disappointed. What the hell!! I actually failed my pure maths paper and got like almost 20 marks of careless mistakes.. I am so pissed wuth myself! Pe lesson, we measured our height and weight. More shocking thing is that i am actually under weight. We ran 4 rounds for pe. What more bad things can happen? Please pray hard that Mr Teo will not want to see my parents. I can imagine what will happen. Ban from all my naps, use of com, watching tv.. And the worst thing is being grounded. I DON'T WANT!! Saying all these things out is actually so hurting that i am crying.. What the hell!! Anyway, today is mama's and shawn's birthday. Happy Birthday!

To my dearest mama: I know you asked for my results. I know you know that i will score badly. But i just cannot bring up the courage to tell you. I am so sorry. I know i have not been studying hard.. But still, i hope you will have a happy birthday. Happy Birthday!)

Results:
Maths Paper 1: 42/100
Chinese 'A' paper 1 (part 1): 39/70
Chinese 'A' paper 1 (part 2): 22/50

One idlot actually say that i am not good in chinese still want be proud and take chinese 'A' and he even say that its so sad that i studied and still failed for my maths.. I SERIOUSLY HATE HIM!! CALL HIM GO AND DIE!! I AM GOING TO SLICE OUT HIS MOUTH!! But then, maybe what he said is true. I am not smart after all.. Think that's all. I am going bath and have a birthday feast with family le..


Gerald took photo with my favourite Milo Ice!!

Youth day holiday

Yups yups... Today is a school holiday and it will be my last youth day holiday.. Hehe.. Sounds like i am growing older le.. =X Anyway, yesterday was grandpa's death anniversary. As usual, we prayed and there is loads of food. I love my grandma's cooking. It's the best!! Especially her soups.. Ya. I had fun at my grandma house the whole of yesterday.. =) I am going out le.. tata~

New blog

Hehe.. This is my new blog. A new blog =a new me =a new life =forget about the past. Yups. That is my main purpose of a new blog. Forget the past, treasure the present and prepare for the future.. =) There is this aunty (my friend's mum) who told my mum that i have got thinner.. Hmm.. So i have decided to gain weight. Exams are over.. It also means that i am one more exam nearer to "A' levels.. That also means that we will stop havin school real soon. So i am going to treasure everyday in school. Kk.. Going watch tv le.. Tata~