Saturday, August 13, 2011

You never know..

You never know how hard things are for me. I wanted to change long ago. When you suddenly left me on my own, she's the one left that I approached. Deep in me I know of the guilt, the feeling of using her as we were never that close. I learnt. Learnt to let go, learnt to get used to not having you around. Learn that she's the only one there around though how bad she treated me. I learn to forget my hate, forget my anger and learn to toralate her.

You were the one who say we will all do it together. But we were again left alone, with another battle and a double battle for me as I need to deal with her constant attitude. I really want to change. I want to be evil and selfish. But I can't. Feelings are just too hard for me.

Hopefully, one day when I am extreme badly hurt, I will learn.

Thursday, August 04, 2011

了解

要完全了解一个人,应该很难吧。看着妈妈爸爸,让我想到:"如果要和不了解你的人生活下半辈子,很悲哀吧~"我和妹妹总是想着,"为什么人要活得这么辛苦?"也许不去这么想,就这样活着,就没那么苦了吧?
我还在等待,等待着那个可以了解我的人,等待着使我觉得这样活着是有意义的人。。那一天会到来吧?


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