Rotting away

Hmm.. Today is the 2nd last day of March le.. Time files sia?? Soon i going to be 19.. Haix. Maybe time should go faster. I hate to be in this stagnant period.. It's like i am so useless.. Doing nothing useful.. Okie. It's a break from studying. I should be happy rite?? Lala.. I don't know. I feel that this break is making me more and more miserable each day.. Tata~

I fell down

Dor say the safest place is the most dangerous place.. Hmm.. I fell down at home the day before. Actually i tought it was nothing serious, just two patches of blue-black on my knees. But yesterday woke up with neck aching. Lucky it's better today. I can turn my head le.. Anyway, sometimes i really think i have nothing better to do.. Haix... Shan't talk le.. tata~

Big bang at home yesterday

Yesterday, i cried. Yes, i did cried because of the charity show, but it was only the little part. The big part was stupid dad. He just cannot understand things and like to use his "big man thoughts". I hate it. To all the guys out there: please do not only care about your pride. It's so selfish!!

I am thinking of closing my blog soon.. I don't know. I am always quite affected by blog issues. I am sad that i have to get to know things from blogs. I am angry that i have been living in my own world. I AM ANGRY WITH MYSELF!! I am sad that i am not the person to know, i am sad that i am not by your side when you needed me. I am sad that you have a friend like me. I am sad that i have to know it from your blog. I am sad that i am crying now. I am sad that i hear no word from you. I AM SAD!! I am truly sorry. I pray that you are fine. I don't know if i should ask. But you have always been very brave. So, i can only pray and pretend that i know nothing. Take care ling~

At last i can post this nice song in my blog. It wasn't working for the past few times. I hope it works for your com..

I'm thankful that i have caring friends. I told my family, if i ever leave this world, please do not let my friends know. I don't want them to be sad. I love my family and friends loads loads.. But only if this world is simpler. Life will not be so hard.. Haha.. Don't worry. I am not leaving this world.. Just feel like telling you all these.. I will use all my energy to fight this hard core world..

iF tHeRe'S nO aFtEr LiFe, I wIlL bE mOrE dArInG tO lEaVe ThIs WoRlD. i Am ScArEd Of ThE fEeLiNg WhEn I aM wItH pEoPlE i KnOw, BuT i DoN't SeEm ViSibLe To ThEm.. I dOn'T wAnT tO bE aLoNe. NoW i UnDeRsTaNd ThAt HoW mUcH yOu CaRe, HoW mUcH yOu GeT. i ReAlLy ChAnGeD lOaDs..

Stories

Story of the day
Hot hot hot!! The weather is very hot these few days. The room themometer shows 31 degrees.. It's the best weather for shopping. Hehe. Staying in air-con malls and looking at nice things. Today, my family had kaya toast and french toast for breakfast. Nice^2. Then we watched the 9.45am korean show last episode. We didn't go out, because mei say she has a test next week and she need stay home study. But, she's watching tv now.. Lala. I had a boring day, because i got nothing to do... =(


Kbox story

Yesterday, me, my elder sis and cousins Adeline & Eileen went to kbox. We had a fun time singing songs.. I sang Fahrenheit songs!! OMG!! They are so cute. When i see them in the mv, i was too engrossed in looking at them instead of looking at the words to sing.. Haha.. Although i have watched before their mv for times.. =X After that, we went to PS to have dinner. Then Adeline and Eileen went home, because Adeline have to get home to do her report. So me and sis went amk hub shop shop.. While going home, we got pass this edo sushi shop and decided to buy some sushi. The shop owner told us to get more sushi as she was about to close the shop. In the end, we got 10 sushi!!

I bought this cute little hair clip at amk hub.

10 sushi. The one circled in green is a wasabi sushi. (HOT!)

Funny Story
We went to bk to eat at PS after kbox. I was ordering my meal when Adeline and Eileen came and said they want to combine their orders with me. So Adeline said she wannt a bk fish meal. Then Eileen said that she wanted a bk chicken meal. I told their orders to the waiter. Then Eileen added on that, "Call the person cut half." I was so shocked and asked, "Huh??!! What cut half??" At that time i was thinking that she wanted to half the meal. In the end it's actually she want to cut the burger into half as it was too long. Haha.. This is the 1st time i heard of that. I didn't know how to tell the waiter, so i said, "She say she want cut half." By the way, we were so funny that the waiter was also laughing with us. Beacuse Adeline was shocked too. She didn't hear of this request before too.
After words:
I wanted to apologise to Eileen. Because my sis said i was speaking very loudly about the cutting half thing. I think it's because i was quite high and reacted too big.. I am so sorry.

Guilty story
On the just past friday, around evening, my phone rang. I took a look and the name there showed Mervin. The first thing that came to my mind was, wasn't him serving NS?? Why he can call me?? I pick up the call and said hello, then check the name on my phone again. Haha.. Actually is he was able to book out on fri and wanted to see if it's outside so i can hang out with him. I was watching tv at that time and was lazy to go out. So i told him that we'll go out on sat. But, in the end, we didn't go out on sat and even today as planned because lily wasn't free and i had to go kbox with my cousins on sat.
After words:
Feel so guilty that he got booked out only on weekends and we didn't get to hang out. So sorry Mervin. We will surely hang out next weekend.. =)

Photos story


Me wearing my pink spects. It's 2006 birthday gift from weiyi & dor..

Godilocks Freeze from breeks.. It's very nice!!

Circled in red is an inconsiderate passenger. He actually sat down near the doors of the train during peak hours. Everyone was packed like sardines and where he sat can actually stand another 3 person including him.

My relief teaching pass when i taught at Anderson.

My Maybank temp staff pass when i was working there.

My menicure. Nice?? My cousin say they looked like faked nails. It's real!!

My favourite food!!

This is the mixed berries yourgut drink. Nice purple & it's very nice too.

Me drinking the mixed fruit and vege yourgut drink. My fav.. Did you see the swriling top. So cool! It's a new invented opening.

Okie. I am stopping here.. Going to watch the charity show le.. Got mayday & darren!! Must watch!! Tata~

Updates

Hmm.. What have i been doing these few days?? In whole, all are stupid things lah.. Hehe.. I am here for updates!! I think i haven't blog about the existence of touty & lily back in Singapore and touty is back to Laos ready.. So, i shall blog about the days when we hang out.. Here they go (hope they are not too boring)..

01-03-2007
As usual i had to work at Maybank on that day. And on this day, both touty & lily came back to Singapore, because we were to receive our results on the next day. Lily arrived 1st and she called me when i working lo.. Anyway, all the girls meet up for dinner at this restaurant at Holland Village. It's my first time there.. Hehe. (Though nothing to be proud of.) The restaurant is nice and the food is nice.. Me, touty, ying, mel, lily and ade eat and talk there.. After that we went home..

02-03-2007
This should be the worst day of my life.. Okay. I shall not talk about the school part.. We (Mirna, ying, gerald, bash, me, lily, mel, leader and mervin) went swensen to have dinner after we leave school.. I just ate ice-cream. Then, me, mirna, ying, mel and mervin went to amk kbox.. We sing till 12 plus (with mirna leaving earlier) then we went home by cab.. I had a fun time venting out all my saddness.. Hehe..

05-03-2007
Touty leaving in the early morning the next day. So she decided to ton in hthe airport. Gerald and lily stayed with her. Before that, me, ying and bash joined them for dinner, and guess what?? It's at our "favourite", fish n co.. We ate and chat.. Then me, ying and bash went home. Because me and ying had to work the next day..




06-03-2007
It's the last day of work at Maybank. Because they shifting to lavender and i am not going with them. Kellyn went so high that day and i was so high with her too.. We ordered pizza for lunch. There this new girl who's supposed to replace me too. I had to taught her all the stuffs when i am not even pro in them.. I did my best.. All the best to her.. Because she's going to work till June.. Stuck in the broring job and with the lousy com for 3 months.. All the best. Yups. I am jobless again. Guess i'll rest for a week, think and register my uni course before getting a new job with bash.. =)

07-03-2007
I need to hand in my time sheet to the agent. So i asked bash to come along with me.. Hehe. Yups. We went shopping at Vivocity after that. We visited Mirna. She look so pro while serving people.. I had fun shopping with bash.. I bought lots of things.. Thanks loads to bash for accompany-ing me.. I boughts birthday persents for my cousins too..

Things i bought at Diaso:




We went Toy "R' us.. And got ourselves capsules.. The other half of the squirrel is at bash there. And i got this stupid hello kitty toy for 3 bucks!!

08-03-2007

Lily wanted to go shop shop at bugis. So we (bash, me, lily, gerald and heup seng) went bugis. Since there's nothing much to shop, we decided to go watch movie.. WARNING.. Never watch Happily Never After. It's a so lame show and it's very boring. Though it teaches you some morals. After that, bash got to go meet her aunt. She went off and we went to pray at the temple. Then, Mervin came, so me and lily went around shop shop with mervin. We shop around while we wait for ying to meet us for dinner. (Please don't get lost again ying..) We went swensen to have dinner, with gerald and heup seng joining us. After dinner we shop shop a while then me and ying went home. And when i reached home, was so shocked that suddenly at this time of the month there's "ge tai" at my block here.. Haha. Okay. I shall not ne bad. It's a performance to mark the opening of the lift upgrading for blocks at my area. There's luck draw too. And i heard from my mum that people only stayed there for the luck draw. When the lucky draw ended, the crowd disperse and only a few stayed to watch the performance.. Typical Singaporeans?? Hehe. Anyway, my grandma was so luck to win a fan at the lucky draw.. =)

I bought this toy out of fun at Seiyu. Because there's an offer. Bash!! This is the toy i say i wanted at Toy 'R' us. It's onli 20 bucks at Seiyu. If you watched Pretty Cure at central, you'll know about this toy. Anyway, i think i bought the wrong one. My sis reminded me and i realised that what i wanted was not this. Anyway, the toy is quite boring la.. But i am NOT childish k mervin!!




Today, i am not doing any shopping. Must save money.. Hehe. Lily's going to work today. Jia you!! If it's too tiring for you, don't force yourself. Sales job is very tiring de.. Take care.. REMINDER!! My birthday coming.. Haz.. Later i going have dinner at restaurant. Grandpa's birthday.. Fun fun.. Happy to meet my cousins.. Lala.. That's all.. Tata~

Confused

I think maybe i cannot accept the truth of my lousy results. In my mind, i don't have the thinking that i have already got my results. I am in a confused state. I don't know whether i should feel sad or happy. I don't know how i should act. I don't know what's next. I don't want to think.. I don't want to be asked.. I just want time to stop right here. I don't want to move on anymore. I have lost all my courage. I have used up all my energy to try so hard. Life is getting so hard.. I don't know how to live it easier anymore. It's harder to tell myself that tomorrow will be a better day as each day passes.. I hope i can just get into the future and take a look, so i can live the life my future is.. Live the life which is designed for me till the end.. I don't know where to get the courage or hope to live on anymore.. I really tried hard.. When will my rewards come?? When will life be easier?? I am lost.. Guide me please.. Give me a little hope and courage to move on.. Tell me you are there for me.. Comfort me, talk to me.. I wanted to cry badly since friday. But i did not drop a tear at all.. I did not. I am feeling miserable..

For your information:
My "perfect" A level results (Serves me right)
Maths-A
Chinese at A level-E
Physics-E
GP-B3