Thursday, August 31, 2006

Feeling terrible

I just did something to hurt myself today. I bought lots of food and stuffed myself till i puke.. But i like the feeling. Sounds sick?? I don't care. I just feel terrible. I feel like doing crazy stuffs. But there's nothing i can do which will make me feel better. Face reality madeleine!!!!!!! ArgHHHHHHHHH...... I hope i can too.. But i cannot!!!! I am suffering... Help help! Anyway, Happy Teachers' Day to alll my dearest teachers!!! I love you all loads!!!!!!!!!!! Today the concert, the teachers actually acted to be students.. So dam cute and i am really touched by the teachers.. Maybe this kind of make me feel that i didn't regret going innova and going school in the heavy rain...... Hehe. I shall go watch some shows for a break........ Tata~

Wednesday, August 30, 2006

YuYang is dam dam dam^infinity handsome


OMG!!!! I took photos with Khim, Adriano and of course YUYANG!! YuYang is very very handsome.. Hehe. But he is too young for me.. Anyway, it's really great time spent in school and they sing live really very nice. Although Adriano was bit nervous.. I am so tired now. After the GP prelim 2, which i am going to flunk, and the maths and physics extra lessons and the shopping. My back is aching now.. But i am still very happy that i took photos with YuYang.. Hehehehehehe....... I had a bad and weird dream. Yesterday, i was reading through my diary after i wrote an entry. I almost cried. Then i message lily, and her words really make me cried badly when i continue reading.. Hmm.. Shall not think about that incident, but what actually make me cried is a letter.. The POP talent show case was great.. Going bath le.. Tata~

Monday, August 28, 2006

Why are you always doing things your way??!!

If you are going to lie to me, better keep me from the truth forever, in other words, LIE TO ME FOREVER. I rather to be the fool who don't know anything than being hurt by knowing everything. How have life been?? It has been the same, studying and more studying. Something seems to be missing everyday. It's like i forgot to do something each day. I hope this feeling will get away from me soon.. Real soon okie.. Some words to people who always think that they are right: you are never always right. So please wake up and don't do things in whatever way you like. You are not living in your world. Please think of the people you have hurt deeply.. Can i say that my CT is not a nice teacher?? =X Yups. He is not nice at all! Not a single bit of nice.. Recently, i am becoming more and more blur on whether which is the real world. My dreams have been so real and at times i think i am talking about things happening in my dreams in the real world, which it never happened before. I am wondering if i am alright afterall.. Tata~ Study time!

Wednesday, August 23, 2006

What happens when the wrong love occurs??

Omg! The love that you yearn never comes but the wrong love always comes knocking on your door. When this happens, what should you do?? Get a subsitute or be a hard core? Anyway, beware, this kind of wrong love is in the air.. I realised that most teachers are bias. My sis was complaining about how unfairly she was treated by her teacher, and another sis started recalling back on her secondary school days when her class was treated unfairly, because her class was so called the "lousy" class.. This make me want to blog about an incident which happened. During a lesson, student A asked the teacher, "Can i draw the table with one leg?" Student B commented that it was such a stupid question and teacher heard his comment. So teacher said, "It's not a silly question student B. This question can tell between a good student and a better one." What the fuck! Was the teacher trying to side student A, or was the teacher trying to tell that it is not a stupid question, or was the teacher trying to say that student B is not that smart to say that it is a stupid question. I really hate the teacher. I don't think it is right for him to make such a comment. It is more not right to make it in front of the whole class, hurting student B. Luckily the teacher didn't use poor and better student instead. Maybe i misinterpreted the teacher, but i still feel that he is obviously being too bias and hurt all other students instead. Today's maths mock paper is difficult. I am kind of lazy to do. So i missed quite a lot of questions. I don't think i will be able to pass.. Oh ya. That stupid classmate make me walk here and there!! He dumb dumb. No question paper, then no cover page.. Can't he just tell me all before i walk to the teacher to get it.. I am so sleepy. But still must study.. Tata~

Monday, August 21, 2006

My sisters are in love

OMG!! I just found out that my two sisters are both in love. But i sound more like the deprived of love kind.. =p Haha.. Talking rubbish.. Anyway, had quite a bad day in school today. The air-cons in the lecture halls are down. So try to imagine a few hundreds of people all locked up in the stuffy lecture hall.. Till now i still wonder how i managed to survive two and a half hours there.. My nose is still blocked and sometimes having mild leakage.. I hate it.. I shall go practise my maths.. Tata~

(P.S. If it is so difficult to depend on others, i rather be independent. Coz i believe in myself. :> )

Sunday, August 20, 2006

Not feeling well still








Yups yups.. I am still not feeling that well. Maybe i am going to fall sick badly soon. =X Just now i went jogging with my sis in the evening. Think i have a month didn't run le, had quite a hard time. But we had a fun time at the lower pierce reservoir. Haha. After running, we ate quite lots of oily food for dinner, so think the running end up useless.. I still have tonnes of homework and i haven't study for my pure maths mock paper, and the prelim 2 time-table is out.. Prelim 2 chinese paper two will spread till the second week the tuesday.. Arghhh.... Life sucks. I hate it..



These are pictures of what my sis gave me as encouragement. wanted to share the words on it with you people, "Only those who chase their dreams will catch them." Tata~ Off to homework land..

Saturday, August 19, 2006

Feeling Unwell

I think my mood make me sick. =X Kind of moody and ended up falling sick. But lucky it's only a bad blocked nose, i still can study.. Hmm.. What am i doing at this hour.. Just studied a bit of physics. I don't think i can stay up any longer, so decided to use the computer for a while before going to sleep. Yups. There's e-learning homework. Must do AJC common test 2002 paper.. I shall do that tomorrow(or later). Touty just uploaded photos. I went see the photos and was thinking back on the fun times we had. Haha.. 05S71 rox!! Work hard guys.. By the way, the mlg says there's only 47 more days to A levels.. I shall go sleep.. TAta~

Tuesday, August 15, 2006

Raining in Innova School Building

Do you know that you can get wet when it's raining, but you are sheltered in a school building? Yups yups. That is what happened today in Innova.. It was raining heavily, and when the wind blow, you get all wet while walking along the corridors. Everyone was wet when we reached the lecture hall, as if we just got caught in the rain. But it was quite fun.. =D Today is the first day of the condensed time-table. That means more time to study, also means must work extra hard.. So i am going to shower and study!! Hehe.. Tata~
(In case of spies, i will change my url soon.. =X)

Friday, August 11, 2006

Happy times are just like fireworks

Happy times are just like fireworks. It's so true. Shawn, i am so sorry that i bullied you today. But Saunders say before that there no use to apologise when you have already did something.. So i shall take my apology back.. =p But then i think think le, i didn't bully you right?? I asked you nicely to help me with a "thank-you" and a "please". Yups yups. Had dinner and watched fireworks today. The fireworks is super nice!! I like it so much!! Especially the green stars.. Hehe. Thanks guys.. Had a great time with you all today. =D I did lots stupid stuffs just now. (Want know what i did, ask me..) I am wide awake now okie.. No any bit of drunk. Just showered and my hair is still wet. I shall go dry my hair and sleep. I am tired..

Ling, i am so sorry that i cannot go watch fireworks with you tomorrow.. I miss you so so much.. Meet up soon ya.. Maybe next week, coz my school ending early.. *wink wink*

I baked cookies yesterday..

Wednesday, August 09, 2006

Happy National Day!!

Happy National Day to everyone.. =D Today is a holiday, supposed to be a good mugging day, but i had a fun day instead.. =X Because my cousin had her birthday celebration today.. Happy Birthday mei mei! I had a great time with all my cousins, especially the time when the guys were crapping and saying that they are tall.. Yups yups. Had a great laugh about that. And all cousins attention.. Our singing of birthday song is getting worse.. Must get to practice for better singing le.. Hehe. Tata~

Mei mei's birthday cake




Guess whose feet are these..

Tuesday, August 08, 2006

World War III

As I scroll through my phone book, i feel so lost all of the sudden. When something happen in your family, the first thought that comes to your mind may be friends, who you can depend on, and listen to all your worries and complains. But, don't know why, i feel friend-less all of the sudden. I really don't know who to tell, and who i can depend on. I haven't tell anyone about what happened yesterday. I am going to take all the memories of what happened yesterday and put it in all here. It's too scary for me to take it, and too hurting to think about it.

Mr Teo wanted us to get our results slip signed. So i asked my dad to sign my results slip. My dad cannot read English. So he told my mum to read it then call him sign. As my mum already see my results slip, she just say that i did badly. So my dad went like bit crazy and angry. (When he haven't even see my results.) He was like scolding and even say it's better off that i just jump off the fifth storey. We went for dinner. I was too hurt to have mine, so i didn't eat anything. My dad just ordered his food, ate and left. My mum was like going crazy when she reach home. Because my dad left without a word and wasn't home. Mum went really to the extreme crazy and say she want a divorce. Dad came home at 10 plus. He showered and went to bed. My mum started to cry and complain. (Don't wish to talk about the contents.) Then my mum went out. My dad was like waking me and my sis up in anger, while he ordered my mum not to go off first, make things clear before she go. Mum didn't listen. She went off. So dad ordered my sis to go find back my mum. I went along with my sis. We were walking in the cold, dark night, trying to look for my mum. I have night blindness. So i was like seeing images here and there.. After a while, me and sis saw mum walking back to our block. So we went back home. My parents started quarreling badly. It went on for a while before we were all ordered back to sleep. I really don't understand my parents. I don't think they deserve to be parents at all. My dad actually ordered my sis, a teenage girl to go out in the middle of the night, to look for my mum, when it is his fault that my mum left house. I hate my dad. I hate my mum too. I think she's having depression. She always think of things which is not true and start accusing people. I have been thinking, maybe i should listen to my dad's advice. If i am gone, maybe all this will not happen and i also don't have to suffer..

School is fine today. Had a half-day. The national day concert is nice. And best of all is Shawn's mum almond jelly longans. Thx thx Shawn and his mum. I went to eat and is back now in prison.. My mood is still not that good. Hope everything will just be a nightmare..

Thx dumb dumb and especially Jestyn for being there for me. Thx thx. =)

Monday, August 07, 2006

Tired

It is only monday and i am so tired.. Lucky this week is a real short week. Only two days if school. But, i already have all my time fully booked.. Have so many things to do, and also have lessons with teachers.. Bla.. I had a bad pain yesterday. I don't know what happened. But i am just in very great pain and was half awake whole night. But lucky the pain went off in the morning, so i was able to go school. But then, till now i still feel bit weird weird. So i must watch what i eat. Hmm.. Mr Teo want a copy of the sgined prelims results slip tomorrow. How am i going to ask my dad to sign it?? Haix haix.. Tomorrow actually is no lesson day. But Mr Teo want to use our precious lesson to "reflect on the past and plan for the future" for physics, which i believe is our future.. Oh ya.. Today got to know from mel that the prom night's theme is masquerade. Omg! What theme is this.. But then i must agree that it is better than NYJC's theme, which is red carpet.. =X Lala.. I am starting to look forward to all activities after school. But stress comes before them.. Tata~

Saturday, August 05, 2006

Pictures

Went eat at Gelare last Tuesday with Bash, Ying & Mel..



My Waffle with Cookies N Cream ice-cream

I finished it all up!! (nice^2)


Bash didn't finish 1/4 of her waffle.

Thursday, August 03, 2006

I HATE HIM

I hate him! I hate him! I hate him!! He is super bias!! I hate him to the infinity!! I didn't go to school today and i am really sick. I having diarrhoea, you cannot expect me to go to school and run to the toilet for every half hours right..

EVIDENCE:
My Medication


My M.C.