You never know how hard things are for me. I wanted to change long ago. When you suddenly left me on my own, she's the one left that I approached. Deep in me I know of the guilt, the feeling of using her as we were never that close. I learnt. Learnt to let go, learnt to get used to not having you around. Learn that she's the only one there around though how bad she treated me. I learn to forget my hate, forget my anger and learn to toralate her.
You were the one who say we will all do it together. But we were again left alone, with another battle and a double battle for me as I need to deal with her constant attitude. I really want to change. I want to be evil and selfish. But I can't. Feelings are just too hard for me.
Hopefully, one day when I am extreme badly hurt, I will learn.
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