I hate my life & i hate myself!

Many a time i juz wonder.. Y is my life so miserable?? I really hate myself. If only i can be ignorant like the rest. I jus cnt bear to see my mum spending all her time getting busy alone for unavoidable situations. I m reali doing my best to help. I m sooo tired tat at times i juz feel like closing 2 eyes.. Bt wen i tink tat mum will b 100 times more tired, my heart aches. I dragged myself to help. I really hope sometimes people can see things the way i do.. I feel like running away again~ really running away. Grandma is not getting any better..

Everyone has a different role to play at different times.. I hope i'll get a better role next time..

Cheer up Madeleine! U r getting older! *cries*

Here comes my birthday wishlist:
1) Disney princess series children books-my side of the story.. (there r a few bks)
2) a pair of sports shoes
3) new bag for school
4) clothes!!
5) Wii
6) My favourite fruits: pear, 水梨, red dragon fruit, mango..
7) My favourite junk food: chocolates, tim tam, sweets..
8) My favourite colour & character: pink & hello kitty!!


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What can I do??

Mama is so 可怜. She has to go over ah ma house everyday to help out with ah ma. & now, bad news came again, most prob wai po is going hospi again. I really hope I can help mama. Holidays are ending soon & I only get to enjoy a very short holiday. So hope there's another me. So hope there's another mama. We are living a weird life now. Hope everything goes back to normal soon. I don't like the changes. If they are good ones, I don't mind working hard to go along. But the changes are just weird. I want my life back!

Dear Santa...

Dear Santa, I wish that you will give us all the gift of good health for our dearest ah ma.. Hope that the new year will be a better one. This year is really a hectic and bad one...

如果。。。

如果我诚心向上天祈祷，他们听得见吗？我的愿望会实现吗？

Exams finally ended yesterday. It was a real hectic and tiring semster. I am still so bothered over the mistakes I made. I really worked hard for this semster, I really hope I can score well. Now it's time to think of the modules to choose.. Hmm.. Stats or DE. They are modules I took this semster and I have to choose one of them before results are released. All thanks to the stupid youth olympics.. Everything is in a mess..

I shall enjoy my short holiday. Really wanna leave Singapore. Waiting for koi and tip top.. :D

Different stages in life

Life is a cycle. Cycle keeps repeating and is continuous.

Going through different stages of life is hard. But as one stage is completed, look back and give a sigh of relief.

Recently I just completed my contract at a tuition center. It's always sad to leave people who you have worked hard building relationships with. But, looking back, I am glad that I am free and from my own view, I think I did a perfect job!

Anyway, I am quite worried over Daddy. He has been complaining about his leg pain which affect his walking. & still, he wants to go bowling. I have said before, I am always sad that Daddy has to still work so hard at this age. I hope I can graduate soon and help with the expenses..

A long entry..

Hehehe.. I am going to type a long & crappy entry.. Yy?? Coz i wana practice typing fast on iphone. Hmm.. It has been a long time since my last entry?? I am facing stress in life again.. It is a torture & i am still convincing myself to take the positive side.. What if i am born rich?? What kind of different problems will i have?? How to spend my money?? Spending money make me feel good. Make me feel i do have a life afterall.. Make me know that i did work hard & get something in return. If only money is a little less important, life will be a little better.. Last week of holidays & i am already feeling all the stress from school. Time really flies..



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Shopping~

I wana go shopping! I dun wana go rot there!

At times, life is really hard. No matter how hard u try to work, it always turns out the negative. Sometimes i m really tired when i start thinking back. I can juz tell myself, nv regret, juz bang myself & move 4ward. Life's hard anyway..


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The unfair world

Saw two men who were so happy just with two small cakes they have bought for dinner, my heart dropped. People say that humans are the smartest animals. I think otherwise. Humans are the stupid-est, living in a world where money is the king.
I love taking long bus rides with music blasting in my ears. I love taking my time to walk each step, while I'm under the umbrella on a rain day.


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Happy Daddy's Day

This page is specially delicated to my dearest daddy. Thanks for working so hard to raise me up. Always feel so sad that you still have to work and be so stress at this age. Endure for 3 years more & I'll save you from all the work stress! I pray and hope that work will be better for you. I'll always be your precious daughter who you can be pround of.. :) Happy Father's Day Daddy!


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Money or enjoyment??

I am in the state of distress again.. Money has again lost it's importance over the mundane life. I start to think why I have to work so hard for money again. I really wanna spend my days in shopping malls, have nice food and hang out with friends. I am real tired. Enjoyment is the most important thing to me now. But money always has the power to make it a different answer when you start to think back and be filled with regret. I hate money!

Young..

I have watched 6 korean dramas in this 2 weeks! Omg~ too many korean dramas bring me into wonderland. Will i stay young if i keep thinking that i am 18? Age is just a number after all. But life is really getting boring at this time. Shall stop here..


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Time flies like crazy

It's the first day of June 2010 already.. We are at the mid point of yet another year.. Time really flies like crazy. One more month of holiday.. I wana get out of this country! Have been staying at home most of these days with korean dramas.. Now in Oh! My Lady world with Siwon... =D

P.S. No matter how hard I work, I never get out of here. I am real tired. Always back into square one..

Feeling so lousy

When things go wrong, they all go wrong together, causing people to lose all the will.. I'm feeling so lousy that I am once again back to my own world. I realise that it has been easy to get into my world now that no one really cares and contact me anymore.. Maybe i should just stay here and never get back into reality. Life's really hard..


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好不好

今天问了妹妹一个问题。 ＂为什么你对我这么坏，我还对你这么好？＂妹妹很生气地挖出所有我对她不好的时候来反驳。我想了想，妹妹为什么会这么自我？问题的重点应该是在＂对我好＂，而不是在＂对她坏＂吧~


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献给亲爱的妈妈

母亲节是妈妈的日子，我要把特别的这天献给我最爱的妈妈。谢谢妈妈把我带到这残酷的世界，但给我无比的爱，是我的力量，让我活了20年。妈妈谢谢你~

旭旭变谐星啦~

人缘不好

人缘不好 or i'm tinking too much? I hope is e latter.. Aneway, i'm feeling super low nw.. I hope i can get better n start wif my wrk, if nt i'll realli die..


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超级变变变 （棒棒堂版）

Birthday wants!!

Birthday greetings from the different organisations keep coming in since 1st Apr~ My birthday is indeed coming.. Hehe.. Can I list my wants?? Yes!

Madeleine's wants & had alrd requested someone to buy for her (I don't mind more than a set):
1) Bag for school
2) Travel cultery
3) Foldable unbrella

Madeleine's wants & still no one plan to buy for her:
1) Backpack
2) Menicure vouchers
3) Hello kitty stero
4) Love life tee
5) Any Hello kitty items =D

No more iphone case and note books please~ Hehe.

可爱的阿緯~