Happy Birthday Kenneth

Happy Birthday my dearest bro, Kenneth!! Although you have to spend your birthday in camp, but you still deserve a great birthday & may all your wishes come true..

Let's get back to yesterday, which is my birthday!! Hee. Actually, yesterday was doom's day for me. Some bad things happened to me in the day. In the evening, i went to have dinner with my dearest friends. Ling, wei, dor, weiyi & her boyfriend were all there to have dinner with me at ling's work place. So, expceted, we ate pepper lunch. Hee. After dinner, there was a cake! Dor bought a small cake for me. Thx thx!! Thx loads to ling, wei, dor, weiyi & her boyfriend for everything!! You all make my day.. =D

Today, i went to watch Meet The Robinsons with dearest mao mao, winifred. I so so long didn't meet up with her le.. Miss her loads man!! Had a great time catching up with her.. Hope we'll meet up again soon & thx for your card!!

Special thanks to Shiling, Winifred, Lynette, Elisa, Weiyi, Mervin, Dorcas, Heup Seng, Bashirah, Meiting, Soke Hwa, Mr Sim, Lily, Felicia, Pearl, Idhzuan, Gerald, Eunice, Touty & Eileen for all your sms wishes.. Thx loads!!!!

Another birthday cake:

My dearest friends:

Kittys on the cake:

1) Birthday card from ling, wei, dor & weiyi.

2) Birthday card from Winifred.

3) Letter from ling.

19th Birthday Celebration

What have i been up to lately?? Err.. i can't really remember. So, i am only going to blog about yesterday and today.. Hehehe.. Happy happy. Always happy with my family & friends. (& not some stupid shit strangers who anyhow accuse people and make me miserable only. I HATE THEM!!! FUCK OFF!! DON'T DISTURB ME!! I AM NOT YOUR DOG!!) Yesterday, we have a mini clique outing. Me lily, ying, jason and mervin met up and had dinner at Amk hub. Bashirah went there too for a while, just to give me birthday pressie.. OMG!! She's so so sweet and i am really very touvhed lover.. She actually bought the bag i wanted when that time i went shopping with her. I loved it so much at the first sight. & she bought it for me!! Thanks thanks thanks!!! Talking back to yesterday, we went to eat at pepper lunch, then there's this girl who work there, i really seriously think that she's interested in our cool Mr Jason.. Haha. Want to know the story behind?? Ask me.. Hehehe.. =p Oh ya, after dinner, actually me and ying and lily wanted to sing. But it's too expensive, so we went to watch mervin & jason play pool.. After that, it's home sweet home..

My first ang pao, from ah ma. Thank-you my dearest ah ma!!

My first present, the bag which i wanted, from my dearest lover. She couldn't find the colour which i wanted & bought this colour instead, but i still love it loads. I used it today..

Today is my 19th birthday celebration. I decided not to invite any friends, so only my mum side family celebrated with me. But i am still very happy. Hehehe.. Some stories to tell with photos.. Read on. But first, i want to thank my dearest mama, for helping to prepare the food for the party, & to my dearest elder sis for cooking all the food, & to my daddy for preparing the fruits, & to all them three for helping to carry all the food to grandparents' house. Lastly, not forgetting to thank dearest ah mei & myself for helping out with the cooking too.. Hehe. Oh ya.. & all my dearest relatives for celebrating with me.. Happy happy!! Thanks a million!!! Love you all loads!!

My birthday cake!! (It's ex!! Cost $51)

My cute little cousin with my sis. This comes the story. My cousin actually wanted to prepare this little bottle for me. She wanted to fill it up with paper stars. But she don't know how to fold stars, so she was like going around asking other to help her fold stars to fill up the bottle for me. Halfway, the bottle was accidentally dropped and shattered into pieces. She was so sad that she really cried hard. Lucky her mum called & say she'll buy another one, but that's like after 15mins of crying then she stopped. When my aunt came back, mama asked me to bring out the cake to cut. So when i went into the room to ask my cousins out to sing birthday song for me, i saw my cousins and aunts all gathering around the table, trying to fold as many stars as they can to put into the new bottle (the stars folded previously were too big to put into the new bottle, so thay have to fold new ones). Haha. It was quite a funny sight, they were like workers trying to rush finish their work. But, i am really touched. I will treasure all the stars which contains all their efforts. Thanks thanks loads!!

My ang baos.. Thanks.

Me and my acting cute sisters..

A tank album from my cousins & sisters (photo above) as a birthday gift. Thanks a million!!

Blogs useful or not

I so feel like writing a GP essay now. Pros & cons of a blog.. This is don't know the how many times i read serious news (which need lots concern & come very shocking to me) from people's blog. The latest news i got from a blog was gerald got admitted into a hospital instead of going back to tekong. God bless him. When i read about this, with photos as evidence, i am in my shock state again. I don't know what i should do. Act as if i don't know?? Or show concern?? I really don't know what to do. Maybe someone can tell me what i should do.. Maybe i can only pray hard for him. But i think he should be recovering well for now. Because it's days ago thing..
**To my dearest friend, gerald, (if you do read my blog) get well soon ya.. I hope you're feeling better & sorry that i didn't know.. I miss ya & luv ya lots.. Stay healthy..

~The only thing i can do is pray.. I don't want another of 2006 incident happen again, when i was left in shock reading someone's blog..

**Happy birthday mel!!

Rotting away

Hmm.. Today is the 2nd last day of March le.. Time files sia?? Soon i going to be 19.. Haix. Maybe time should go faster. I hate to be in this stagnant period.. It's like i am so useless.. Doing nothing useful.. Okie. It's a break from studying. I should be happy rite?? Lala.. I don't know. I feel that this break is making me more and more miserable each day.. Tata~

I fell down

Dor say the safest place is the most dangerous place.. Hmm.. I fell down at home the day before. Actually i tought it was nothing serious, just two patches of blue-black on my knees. But yesterday woke up with neck aching. Lucky it's better today. I can turn my head le.. Anyway, sometimes i really think i have nothing better to do.. Haix... Shan't talk le.. tata~

Big bang at home yesterday

Yesterday, i cried. Yes, i did cried because of the charity show, but it was only the little part. The big part was stupid dad. He just cannot understand things and like to use his "big man thoughts". I hate it. To all the guys out there: please do not only care about your pride. It's so selfish!!

I am thinking of closing my blog soon.. I don't know. I am always quite affected by blog issues. I am sad that i have to get to know things from blogs. I am angry that i have been living in my own world. I AM ANGRY WITH MYSELF!! I am sad that i am not the person to know, i am sad that i am not by your side when you needed me. I am sad that you have a friend like me. I am sad that i have to know it from your blog. I am sad that i am crying now. I am sad that i hear no word from you. I AM SAD!! I am truly sorry. I pray that you are fine. I don't know if i should ask. But you have always been very brave. So, i can only pray and pretend that i know nothing. Take care ling~

At last i can post this nice song in my blog. It wasn't working for the past few times. I hope it works for your com..

I'm thankful that i have caring friends. I told my family, if i ever leave this world, please do not let my friends know. I don't want them to be sad. I love my family and friends loads loads.. But only if this world is simpler. Life will not be so hard.. Haha.. Don't worry. I am not leaving this world.. Just feel like telling you all these.. I will use all my energy to fight this hard core world..

iF tHeRe'S nO aFtEr LiFe, I wIlL bE mOrE dArInG tO lEaVe ThIs WoRlD. i Am ScArEd Of ThE fEeLiNg WhEn I aM wItH pEoPlE i KnOw, BuT i DoN't SeEm ViSibLe To ThEm.. I dOn'T wAnT tO bE aLoNe. NoW i UnDeRsTaNd ThAt HoW mUcH yOu CaRe, HoW mUcH yOu GeT. i ReAlLy ChAnGeD lOaDs..

Stories

Story of the day
Hot hot hot!! The weather is very hot these few days. The room themometer shows 31 degrees.. It's the best weather for shopping. Hehe. Staying in air-con malls and looking at nice things. Today, my family had kaya toast and french toast for breakfast. Nice^2. Then we watched the 9.45am korean show last episode. We didn't go out, because mei say she has a test next week and she need stay home study. But, she's watching tv now.. Lala. I had a boring day, because i got nothing to do... =(


Kbox story

Yesterday, me, my elder sis and cousins Adeline & Eileen went to kbox. We had a fun time singing songs.. I sang Fahrenheit songs!! OMG!! They are so cute. When i see them in the mv, i was too engrossed in looking at them instead of looking at the words to sing.. Haha.. Although i have watched before their mv for times.. =X After that, we went to PS to have dinner. Then Adeline and Eileen went home, because Adeline have to get home to do her report. So me and sis went amk hub shop shop.. While going home, we got pass this edo sushi shop and decided to buy some sushi. The shop owner told us to get more sushi as she was about to close the shop. In the end, we got 10 sushi!!

I bought this cute little hair clip at amk hub.

10 sushi. The one circled in green is a wasabi sushi. (HOT!)

Funny Story
We went to bk to eat at PS after kbox. I was ordering my meal when Adeline and Eileen came and said they want to combine their orders with me. So Adeline said she wannt a bk fish meal. Then Eileen said that she wanted a bk chicken meal. I told their orders to the waiter. Then Eileen added on that, "Call the person cut half." I was so shocked and asked, "Huh??!! What cut half??" At that time i was thinking that she wanted to half the meal. In the end it's actually she want to cut the burger into half as it was too long. Haha.. This is the 1st time i heard of that. I didn't know how to tell the waiter, so i said, "She say she want cut half." By the way, we were so funny that the waiter was also laughing with us. Beacuse Adeline was shocked too. She didn't hear of this request before too.
After words:
I wanted to apologise to Eileen. Because my sis said i was speaking very loudly about the cutting half thing. I think it's because i was quite high and reacted too big.. I am so sorry.

Guilty story
On the just past friday, around evening, my phone rang. I took a look and the name there showed Mervin. The first thing that came to my mind was, wasn't him serving NS?? Why he can call me?? I pick up the call and said hello, then check the name on my phone again. Haha.. Actually is he was able to book out on fri and wanted to see if it's outside so i can hang out with him. I was watching tv at that time and was lazy to go out. So i told him that we'll go out on sat. But, in the end, we didn't go out on sat and even today as planned because lily wasn't free and i had to go kbox with my cousins on sat.
After words:
Feel so guilty that he got booked out only on weekends and we didn't get to hang out. So sorry Mervin. We will surely hang out next weekend.. =)

Photos story


Me wearing my pink spects. It's 2006 birthday gift from weiyi & dor..

Godilocks Freeze from breeks.. It's very nice!!

Circled in red is an inconsiderate passenger. He actually sat down near the doors of the train during peak hours. Everyone was packed like sardines and where he sat can actually stand another 3 person including him.

My relief teaching pass when i taught at Anderson.

My Maybank temp staff pass when i was working there.

My menicure. Nice?? My cousin say they looked like faked nails. It's real!!

My favourite food!!

This is the mixed berries yourgut drink. Nice purple & it's very nice too.

Me drinking the mixed fruit and vege yourgut drink. My fav.. Did you see the swriling top. So cool! It's a new invented opening.

Okie. I am stopping here.. Going to watch the charity show le.. Got mayday & darren!! Must watch!! Tata~

Updates

Hmm.. What have i been doing these few days?? In whole, all are stupid things lah.. Hehe.. I am here for updates!! I think i haven't blog about the existence of touty & lily back in Singapore and touty is back to Laos ready.. So, i shall blog about the days when we hang out.. Here they go (hope they are not too boring)..

01-03-2007
As usual i had to work at Maybank on that day. And on this day, both touty & lily came back to Singapore, because we were to receive our results on the next day. Lily arrived 1st and she called me when i working lo.. Anyway, all the girls meet up for dinner at this restaurant at Holland Village. It's my first time there.. Hehe. (Though nothing to be proud of.) The restaurant is nice and the food is nice.. Me, touty, ying, mel, lily and ade eat and talk there.. After that we went home..

02-03-2007
This should be the worst day of my life.. Okay. I shall not talk about the school part.. We (Mirna, ying, gerald, bash, me, lily, mel, leader and mervin) went swensen to have dinner after we leave school.. I just ate ice-cream. Then, me, mirna, ying, mel and mervin went to amk kbox.. We sing till 12 plus (with mirna leaving earlier) then we went home by cab.. I had a fun time venting out all my saddness.. Hehe..

05-03-2007
Touty leaving in the early morning the next day. So she decided to ton in hthe airport. Gerald and lily stayed with her. Before that, me, ying and bash joined them for dinner, and guess what?? It's at our "favourite", fish n co.. We ate and chat.. Then me, ying and bash went home. Because me and ying had to work the next day..




06-03-2007
It's the last day of work at Maybank. Because they shifting to lavender and i am not going with them. Kellyn went so high that day and i was so high with her too.. We ordered pizza for lunch. There this new girl who's supposed to replace me too. I had to taught her all the stuffs when i am not even pro in them.. I did my best.. All the best to her.. Because she's going to work till June.. Stuck in the broring job and with the lousy com for 3 months.. All the best. Yups. I am jobless again. Guess i'll rest for a week, think and register my uni course before getting a new job with bash.. =)

07-03-2007
I need to hand in my time sheet to the agent. So i asked bash to come along with me.. Hehe. Yups. We went shopping at Vivocity after that. We visited Mirna. She look so pro while serving people.. I had fun shopping with bash.. I bought lots of things.. Thanks loads to bash for accompany-ing me.. I boughts birthday persents for my cousins too..

Things i bought at Diaso:




We went Toy "R' us.. And got ourselves capsules.. The other half of the squirrel is at bash there. And i got this stupid hello kitty toy for 3 bucks!!

08-03-2007

Lily wanted to go shop shop at bugis. So we (bash, me, lily, gerald and heup seng) went bugis. Since there's nothing much to shop, we decided to go watch movie.. WARNING.. Never watch Happily Never After. It's a so lame show and it's very boring. Though it teaches you some morals. After that, bash got to go meet her aunt. She went off and we went to pray at the temple. Then, Mervin came, so me and lily went around shop shop with mervin. We shop around while we wait for ying to meet us for dinner. (Please don't get lost again ying..) We went swensen to have dinner, with gerald and heup seng joining us. After dinner we shop shop a while then me and ying went home. And when i reached home, was so shocked that suddenly at this time of the month there's "ge tai" at my block here.. Haha. Okay. I shall not ne bad. It's a performance to mark the opening of the lift upgrading for blocks at my area. There's luck draw too. And i heard from my mum that people only stayed there for the luck draw. When the lucky draw ended, the crowd disperse and only a few stayed to watch the performance.. Typical Singaporeans?? Hehe. Anyway, my grandma was so luck to win a fan at the lucky draw.. =)

I bought this toy out of fun at Seiyu. Because there's an offer. Bash!! This is the toy i say i wanted at Toy 'R' us. It's onli 20 bucks at Seiyu. If you watched Pretty Cure at central, you'll know about this toy. Anyway, i think i bought the wrong one. My sis reminded me and i realised that what i wanted was not this. Anyway, the toy is quite boring la.. But i am NOT childish k mervin!!




Today, i am not doing any shopping. Must save money.. Hehe. Lily's going to work today. Jia you!! If it's too tiring for you, don't force yourself. Sales job is very tiring de.. Take care.. REMINDER!! My birthday coming.. Haz.. Later i going have dinner at restaurant. Grandpa's birthday.. Fun fun.. Happy to meet my cousins.. Lala.. That's all.. Tata~

Confused

I think maybe i cannot accept the truth of my lousy results. In my mind, i don't have the thinking that i have already got my results. I am in a confused state. I don't know whether i should feel sad or happy. I don't know how i should act. I don't know what's next. I don't want to think.. I don't want to be asked.. I just want time to stop right here. I don't want to move on anymore. I have lost all my courage. I have used up all my energy to try so hard. Life is getting so hard.. I don't know how to live it easier anymore. It's harder to tell myself that tomorrow will be a better day as each day passes.. I hope i can just get into the future and take a look, so i can live the life my future is.. Live the life which is designed for me till the end.. I don't know where to get the courage or hope to live on anymore.. I really tried hard.. When will my rewards come?? When will life be easier?? I am lost.. Guide me please.. Give me a little hope and courage to move on.. Tell me you are there for me.. Comfort me, talk to me.. I wanted to cry badly since friday. But i did not drop a tear at all.. I did not. I am feeling miserable..

For your information:
My "perfect" A level results (Serves me right)
Maths-A
Chinese at A level-E
Physics-E
GP-B3

Happy birthday

Happy birthday to everyone!! Today is human day, that means is everyone's birthday.. Hehe. I am so happy, because it's weekend and i don't have to work.. Yay yay!! Yesterday went out with bash, ying and mervin.. So fun meeting up with you all.. We were all like crazy, laughing out loud lots of time. Especially at Fish and Co. and Mervin's super dog.. Just now went wei house for house visiting. Then she, her sis and a friend come my house. Now they are gone, my mama went out with friends, sis went to meet teacher, younger sis go tuition, only left me and dad at home. I got nothing to do.. So i come to blog and play games.. Hehe.. kk.. Enough talk. Going play games le.. Tata~

Photos we took on the train on our way home (Wonder where's mervin?? He's the lousy photographer for the 2nd photo. The 1st photo is girls only, so he's not in it too.. Hehe.) :

Happy Chinese New Year

Happy Chinese New Year............................Eve!! Hehe. Hmm.. Yesterday i went back Anderson do relief teaching again.. OMG!! I can say this is the best time i had since i first went to do relief teaching. I taught all primary one classes for the whole day. They are so cute!! Plus more i get to join them for a mini concert. I really got the Chinese New Year atmosphere.. Anyway, Chinese New Year is tomorrow, want to wish all my friends and family a very Happy Chinese New Year.. I wish and pray and hope that i will really have a good year ahead. What's in the past is the past. Start afresh for this new piggy year.. I cannot wait to have a fresh year.. Tata~

Happy Birthday Wei..

Happy Birthday Wei!!! Today, me and Ling went to wei house to give her a surprise at 12am. Hehe.. It's a great success. She was really touched and surprised when i call her to open the door and she saw me and ling with a cake outside her house. It was my plan la.. And i am so sorry to ling that she have to waste money to take a cab home at 2am.. Ya. We stayed at wei house till 2am. Then i accompany ling to take a cab, then i walked home.. I am too very sorry to wei that i didn't turn up for the dinner just now.. Hmm.. Don't wish to talk about it.. Anyway, i did many things which i really regret.. I don't know what happened to me.. But, it seems like as each day pass by, i don't understand myself more and more.. Help.........

Moody

*>In one of my worst moods again<* I really worked very hard for my dreams. But, everything just turn out to be a question mark and are left hanging there. I really don't know which is th right thing to do anymore. I wish that i can travel to the future to get answers for all the question marks. I am not greedy. I just want a simple life like others have. Maybe, just maybe, i am thinking too much.. Sleeping is the only way which can stop me thinking.. I want to just get away from the real world and be the princess in my world.. Please allow me to be in my world for some time.......

Updates

What have i been doing.. Hmm.. A bit of updates. Sunday, 21 Jan, we didn't go to my grandmother's house because my younger sister was to go to the community club to get her merit busary award. My parents went with her to the cc.. After that, my sis wanted to go to amk hub to buy a new handphone. So, after a very long time since we went out as a family, the whole family went too amk hub. We had our dinner and shopped around. My sister bought a new handphone too.. Monday, i went to this pro-teach student care for a little exam to test my knowledge. While waiting, the person actually let me have a chance to teach the primary 1 kids. It's really fun and the kids are very cute!! So i was there till noon. The next day, i went back again for a teaching test, to test my teaching ability of course. I got the naughtiest class, the primary twos. So i test them spelling and guide them with their work. After that, i went to take care of the them, while they eat and watch tv.. A long day, but i was really happy. A little boy gave me a coin chocolate too.. =) But the sad news is that i don't have a chance to work there, to teach the cute kids. The person wanted a teacher till the end year. So, if my results allow me to get into a university, if i am going to take up the job, i will have to wait till the next year to go into university. But if my results don't allow me to get into the university, this is actually a very good job. Because it's my dream and something i like. But, life is always not a bed of roses. After much consideration, i decided to give up the job. I will not want to waste a year to get into uni. After my studies, i may get better chances right?? I don't know. Although i still don't know what's my results like, i will not want to take the risk of not being able to get into uni. What's more, of course everyone will bear the thinking that they are able to get into the uni, including me.. So, pray hard for me!! Basically, that's the main show of the week. The other days are slacking days and watching tv days. We bought a new DVD player. So i stayed home to watch DVDs with my mama and did cooking on friday. I think i will go and get a sales job.. In need of vitamin M!! Tomorrow Fahrenheit having their autograph session at IMM.. I WANT TO GO!! Mama is out with her friends, mei at tuition, dad sleeping, jie watching tv and she going out soon.. Bored.. I going watch shows to kill time.. TAta~

My Cute Little Cousin

Enen here wearing the super big minne jacket all her big cousins gave her for her 1 year old birthday. She so cute. She actually stand there to let me take a photo of her. (She's actually walking here and there whole day. *not tired at all*)






My cute little cousin really make my day. She's so cute!! Haha.. Staying at home to rot all day is so boring.. I will just sleep, eat and watch tv.. It's like wasting my life away.. But it's my long earned holiday what.. So i can slack right?? Anyway, Sunday went to my grandma's house and my llittle cousin went too. She super smart. She keep wanting people to bring her out for 'gai gai'. Oh ya.. So sorry lover about Monday.. Hmm.. Was kind of busy.. Cya soon though!

1st day of school??

I am missing school.. Can you believe it?? Me, Lim Mei Ling Madeleine, the girl who always cry hard when she have to go to school, actually missing school??!! Yups. I admit that i am missing school, maybe not the academic part, but the atmosphere and friends.. After 15 years (that's what someone told me) of schooling, this is the 1st time i don't have to wake up on the 1st time of school.. I am rotting at home. I going to get a job and make myself useful.. Life is short, decided not to slack anymore.. I am missing people.. Missing everyone!! Ling, dorc, wei, yiwei, lover, lily, 2t, all 05S71, all my friends.. Pray hard that i marry soon, so can invite you all to my wedding dinner, and we'll gather all over again.. Hahahahahahahahahahahahaha.. I am dreaming at this hour.. tata~

Happy 2007

Bye bye 2006.. Happy 2007 to all.. Thanks loads for all those wonderful memories you have created, especially all in 05S71.. Tata~

Counting down to 2007

Two more days to 2007.. Yesterday was sis's 21st birthday. I did something which i felt very bad. I caused her to be scolded on her birthday. *really guilty* Still feeling very bad now. Another thing which caused my depressed mood today is that i found out i am kind of friendless.. I don't know why this problem came to me again. As i scrolled through my phonebook, i really don't know who should i talk to. I keep having the feeling that if i am going to call or sms this friend, i am just causing my friend troubles, so i rather i just suffer myself. =X Help!! So sorry to all that i am kind of missing. I am busy at home, doing packing and painting and maybe, finding jobs.. Yups. That's my life. nothing new.. I really hope to have party soon.. Missing the days of shopping, talking, laughing, crapping and going crazy.. tata~

P.S. I miss you too lover. Leader, Happy 19th Birthday in advance!! *just in case i forget the date*