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Drama craze

2011-11-06T00:19:00.001+08:00

Have been watching Protect the Boss this week. Practicing the skill of skiming through a drama.. N on top of the high skill of skiming, ders a higher skill which i have.. My heart still aches for the lead charcters in the drama.. Think i am going crazy.. Watching 我可能不会爱你 too.. Cnt wait 4 e nxt episode~ both are highly recomended dramas by mad! :D

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后年。。。

2011-10-10T00:45:00.002+08:00

一年的时间，当大家忙着忙着，很快就过去了吧。我会学着习惯没有你的生活。我现在已经做得很好了不是吗？姐姐，祝你幸福！虽让我们已慢慢的疏远了，有好多事我都没办法跟你说了。有万分的不舍。。。想着后年的事。。。

I ponder..

2011-09-12T01:51:00.001+08:00

Late in the night, I ponder.. I am thinking.. Thinking if I should take this step ahead. I am afraid. Afraid that I will fall again.. Maybe you are too..

You never know..

2011-08-13T10:53:00.004+08:00

You never know how hard things are for me. I wanted to change long ago. When you suddenly left me on my own, she's the one left that I approached. Deep in me I know of the guilt, the feeling of using her as we were never that close. I learnt. Learnt to let go, learnt to get used to not having you around. Learn that she's the only one there around though how bad she treated me. I learn to forget my hate, forget my anger and learn to toralate her.

You were the one who say we will all do it together. But we were again left alone, with another battle and a double battle for me as I need to deal with her constant attitude. I really want to change. I want to be evil and selfish. But I can't. Feelings are just too hard for me.

Hopefully, one day when I am extreme badly hurt, I will learn.

了解

2011-08-04T10:19:00.001+08:00

要完全了解一个人，应该很难吧。看着妈妈爸爸，让我想到：＂如果要和不了解你的人生活下半辈子，很悲哀吧~＂我和妹妹总是想着，＂为什么人要活得这么辛苦？＂也许不去这么想，就这样活着，就没那么苦了吧？
我还在等待，等待着那个可以了解我的人，等待着使我觉得这样活着是有意义的人。。那一天会到来吧？

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如果我就这样死了？

2011-06-10T13:58:00.001+08:00

好累好累。。每当我好累时，想逃离这个世界时，都会逼自己到梦里去。我真的累了。也睡了很久。白马王子呢？

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Feeling meaningless all over again..

2011-06-09T14:03:00.000+08:00

I really hate the life I am living now. Maybe it's not life at all. Who's the gamer controlling me??!! Get a life!!!! I hate a lot of things my family is like, but there's nothing i can do but abide. That's life huh? I should be doing my e-learn for my driving.. Tsk tsk.. I really need a real break before practicum starts. But it'll never come.. Next week will be more hectic with the renovation at ah ma house..

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母亲节快乐！

2011-05-08T16:54:00.000+08:00

Happy mother's day to all the gr8 mums!! Esp to my dearest 伟大的妈妈: Your actions are not something any daughter-in-law or wife can do. U r reali gr8 to carry out all e responsibilities. During all these hard times we r going through, do stay strong, healthy & happy. Love u so much!
My dearest 阿嬷: i love u so much tat i cry over & over, seeing u go through these hard times.. Stay strong!

P.S. While we wait for the rainbow after rain~ another bad news to share: juz learnt tat my uncle gt cancer. I m scared. I dun noe how much more r cuming... Dun noe how much more we can tak.. Dun noe how much more we can do. Count e secs, mins, days.. Tats how far we can go.

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Every mark counts

2011-04-05T22:24:00.001+08:00

I am so unhappy & angry with myself. Always making stupid mistakes in tests.. I m real dumb!! Every mark is a gold!! I cnt afford 2 even lost half of it! Sobsss.. Bt all my careless-ness is making me lose all e gold. Really feel like dying.. I nid 2 wrk super hard 4 exams.. Which is a wk away only..

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Updated wishlist!! =D

2011-03-13T23:01:00.002+08:00

My birthday wishlist:
1) Disney princess series children books-my side of the story.. (there r a few bks)
2) a pair of sports shoes
3) new bag for school
4) clothes!!
5) Wii
6) My favourite fruits: pear, 水梨, red dragon fruit, mango..
7) My favourite junk food: chocolates, tim tam, sweets..
8) My favourite colour & character: pink & hello kitty!!

9) Crocs+jibbitz

Cravings~

2011-03-12T22:54:00.000+08:00

I am craving for cream cake!!!! I asked mama to buy me a whole birthday cake. Haha. I really feel like eating tat.. Will save some money and buy myself one...

I hate my life & i hate myself!

2011-03-12T19:38:00.002+08:00

Many a time i juz wonder.. Y is my life so miserable?? I really hate myself. If only i can be ignorant like the rest. I jus cnt bear to see my mum spending all her time getting busy alone for unavoidable situations. I m reali doing my best to help. I m sooo tired tat at times i juz feel like closing 2 eyes.. Bt wen i tink tat mum will b 100 times more tired, my heart aches. I dragged myself to help. I really hope sometimes people can see things the way i do.. I feel like running away again~ really running away. Grandma is not getting any better..

Everyone has a different role to play at different times.. I hope i'll get a better role next time..

Cheer up Madeleine! U r getting older! *cries*

Here comes my birthday wishlist:
1) Disney princess series children books-my side of the story.. (there r a few bks)
2) a pair of sports shoes
3) new bag for school
4) clothes!!
5) Wii
6) My favourite fruits: pear, 水梨, red dragon fruit, mango..
7) My favourite junk food: chocolates, tim tam, sweets..
8) My favourite colour & character: pink & hello kitty!!

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What can I do??

2011-01-07T13:05:00.002+08:00

Mama is so 可怜. She has to go over ah ma house everyday to help out with ah ma. & now, bad news came again, most prob wai po is going hospi again. I really hope I can help mama. Holidays are ending soon & I only get to enjoy a very short holiday. So hope there's another me. So hope there's another mama. We are living a weird life now. Hope everything goes back to normal soon. I don't like the changes. If they are good ones, I don't mind working hard to go along. But the changes are just weird. I want my life back!

Dear Santa...

2010-12-19T23:34:00.002+08:00

Dear Santa, I wish that you will give us all the gift of good health for our dearest ah ma.. Hope that the new year will be a better one. This year is really a hectic and bad one...

如果。。。

2010-12-14T12:57:00.002+08:00

如果我诚心向上天祈祷，他们听得见吗？我的愿望会实现吗？

Exams finally ended yesterday. It was a real hectic and tiring semster. I am still so bothered over the mistakes I made. I really worked hard for this semster, I really hope I can score well. Now it's time to think of the modules to choose.. Hmm.. Stats or DE. They are modules I took this semster and I have to choose one of them before results are released. All thanks to the stupid youth olympics.. Everything is in a mess..

I shall enjoy my short holiday. Really wanna leave Singapore. Waiting for koi and tip top.. :D

Different stages in life

2010-11-07T16:10:00.002+08:00

Life is a cycle. Cycle keeps repeating and is continuous.

Going through different stages of life is hard. But as one stage is completed, look back and give a sigh of relief.

Recently I just completed my contract at a tuition center. It's always sad to leave people who you have worked hard building relationships with. But, looking back, I am glad that I am free and from my own view, I think I did a perfect job!

Anyway, I am quite worried over Daddy. He has been complaining about his leg pain which affect his walking. & still, he wants to go bowling. I have said before, I am always sad that Daddy has to still work so hard at this age. I hope I can graduate soon and help with the expenses..

A long entry..

2010-08-29T16:17:00.000+08:00

Hehehe.. I am going to type a long & crappy entry.. Yy?? Coz i wana practice typing fast on iphone. Hmm.. It has been a long time since my last entry?? I am facing stress in life again.. It is a torture & i am still convincing myself to take the positive side.. What if i am born rich?? What kind of different problems will i have?? How to spend my money?? Spending money make me feel good. Make me feel i do have a life afterall.. Make me know that i did work hard & get something in return. If only money is a little less important, life will be a little better.. Last week of holidays & i am already feeling all the stress from school. Time really flies..

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Shopping~

2010-08-15T01:03:00.001+08:00

I wana go shopping! I dun wana go rot there!

At times, life is really hard. No matter how hard u try to work, it always turns out the negative. Sometimes i m really tired when i start thinking back. I can juz tell myself, nv regret, juz bang myself & move 4ward. Life's hard anyway..

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The unfair world

2010-07-04T01:20:00.001+08:00

Saw two men who were so happy just with two small cakes they have bought for dinner, my heart dropped. People say that humans are the smartest animals. I think otherwise. Humans are the stupid-est, living in a world where money is the king.
I love taking long bus rides with music blasting in my ears. I love taking my time to walk each step, while I'm under the umbrella on a rain day.

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Happy Daddy's Day

2010-06-20T12:54:00.000+08:00

This page is specially delicated to my dearest daddy. Thanks for working so hard to raise me up. Always feel so sad that you still have to work and be so stress at this age. Endure for 3 years more & I'll save you from all the work stress! I pray and hope that work will be better for you. I'll always be your precious daughter who you can be pround of.. :) Happy Father's Day Daddy!

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Money or enjoyment??

2010-06-14T23:42:00.002+08:00

I am in the state of distress again.. Money has again lost it's importance over the mundane life. I start to think why I have to work so hard for money again. I really wanna spend my days in shopping malls, have nice food and hang out with friends. I am real tired. Enjoyment is the most important thing to me now. But money always has the power to make it a different answer when you start to think back and be filled with regret. I hate money!

Young..

2010-06-05T18:36:00.000+08:00

I have watched 6 korean dramas in this 2 weeks! Omg~ too many korean dramas bring me into wonderland. Will i stay young if i keep thinking that i am 18? Age is just a number after all. But life is really getting boring at this time. Shall stop here..

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Time flies like crazy

2010-06-01T22:02:00.002+08:00

It's the first day of June 2010 already.. We are at the mid point of yet another year.. Time really flies like crazy. One more month of holiday.. I wana get out of this country! Have been staying at home most of these days with korean dramas.. Now in Oh! My Lady world with Siwon... =D

P.S. No matter how hard I work, I never get out of here. I am real tired. Always back into square one..

Feeling so lousy

2010-05-26T22:47:00.001+08:00

When things go wrong, they all go wrong together, causing people to lose all the will.. I'm feeling so lousy that I am once again back to my own world. I realise that it has been easy to get into my world now that no one really cares and contact me anymore.. Maybe i should just stay here and never get back into reality. Life's really hard..

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好不好

2010-05-21T22:50:00.001+08:00

今天问了妹妹一个问题。＂为什么你对我这么坏，我还对你这么好？＂妹妹很生气地挖出所有我对她不好的时候来反驳。我想了想，妹妹为什么会这么自我？问题的重点应该是在＂对我好＂，而不是在＂对她坏＂吧~

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献给亲爱的妈妈

2010-05-09T11:17:00.001+08:00

母亲节是妈妈的日子，我要把特别的这天献给我最爱的妈妈。谢谢妈妈把我带到这残酷的世界，但给我无比的爱，是我的力量，让我活了20年。妈妈谢谢你~

旭旭变谐星啦~

2010-04-26T19:15:00.001+08:00

人缘不好

2010-04-16T09:22:00.001+08:00

人缘不好 or i'm tinking too much? I hope is e latter.. Aneway, i'm feeling super low nw.. I hope i can get better n start wif my wrk, if nt i'll realli die..

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超级变变变（棒棒堂版）

2010-04-13T20:20:00.000+08:00

Birthday wants!!

2010-04-02T16:40:00.002+08:00

Birthday greetings from the different organisations keep coming in since 1st Apr~ My birthday is indeed coming.. Hehe.. Can I list my wants?? Yes!

Madeleine's wants & had alrd requested someone to buy for her (I don't mind more than a set):
1) Bag for school
2) Travel cultery
3) Foldable unbrella

Madeleine's wants & still no one plan to buy for her:
1) Backpack
2) Menicure vouchers
3) Hello kitty stero
4) Love life tee
5) Any Hello kitty items =D

No more iphone case and note books please~ Hehe.

可爱的阿緯~

2010-04-01T23:43:00.001+08:00

Wat shd i do??

2010-03-25T18:10:00.001+08:00

Had algebra test 2dae.. So regret tat i din studi much.. Coz e test wasnt diff, all e quest r fr e tut.. Bt i din do my tut, so conclusion i duno how 2 do..

Tok abt him wif sum 1 2dae.. N sudden i miss him so much again.. I tink i'm going crazy. Yest was his bdae.. Was too busy 2 bother 2 drop him a msg.. Tinking of sending him an ecard 2dae.. Wonder if i shd.. It has been so long. Its reali time i totally giv up.. Will he b waiting 4 my wishes?? i wonder n wonder..

On my way hm fr sch nw. Ace was interesting. Had treasure hunt! Wana nap a while on train. Nid energy 2 rush 4 tuition. Tata~

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Sessy~

2010-03-13T01:21:00.000+08:00

Saving trouble.

2010-03-12T00:39:00.001+08:00

To save all my dearest frens hu care to noe more abt my life, i'm gonna save u fr all e trouble n remove e login page.. Haha.. I realise when i blog using my phone, i'm super lazy to use eng.. All my shorts appear again.. Anw, reali a super hectic 2 wks n at last its fri!! 1 more tut in 10 hrs time n my wk end of lesson plan is here!! I'm gonna wrk on my maths tut nw at dis hr, juz 4 dr zhao.. Tata~

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Shitty day

2010-02-22T11:04:00.000+08:00

Rahhhhh.. Y m i so enthu 2dae, a mon, n cum an hr earli 2 sch??!! Thx 2 all e probs created by uncaring pp.. I m super affected! I shall shut up n find a plc 2 studi.. Zzzz..

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Life's nt tat gr8 aft all

2010-02-15T01:15:00.000+08:00

Can all e idiotic tutors juz let me off n allow me 2 enjoy CNY? Can my dumb n shitty sis jus let me off n allow me 2 enjoy CNY?? Can all e misery juz pause n allow me 2 enjoy CNY?? I'm super nt in e mood on e 1st dae of CNY,. Nth more 2 rant.. Life sucks afterall..

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I hate myself!!

2010-02-10T08:26:00.001+08:00

My mum has dis habit of waking us up super early in e mornings.. So dis morning, i juz tot it's still earli, since my alarm hav nt rang.. Sense sth was nt rite coz i waited n my alarm still did nt ring.. Woke up, check e time, it's 7!! Omg! I'm late.. (2 tink my less is @ 0830) so i rush like mad (i'm 1..), super pissed tat i hav 2 sit like a gd girl on train n do nth.. So hope tat i can teleport or mak e train fly.. Bt phew, saw 199 n rush 4 it, my fren hus supposed 2 let e tutor noe i'm late is in e bus too.. So afterall i'm nt tat late, bt i'll still b late.. Hope it'll b a gr8 dae ahead! Bus is going in2 sch @ last.. Tata-

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Don't assume tat u noe me tat well!!

2010-02-09T22:54:00.000+08:00

I hav tonnes of wrk.. So i'm going 2 do a quick post via my phone.. My beloved phone!! Haha.. Tat's nt e whole pt.. I jus hav a new yr resolution.. I m going 2 b a super quiet n anti-social person in sch.. I jus super hate it tat dose pp assume tat dey noe me very well when dey'r nt even on my fren list. (oops.. Tat's childish..) anw, dey dun even noe me enough 2 label me.. Even my frens 4 10 yrs dun label me!! I jus hate dem tat dey like 2 grade me dwn n mak me feel inferior... Rahhhh.. I nid 2 rant!!! Wher's shawn???

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Super selfish

2010-02-06T12:24:00.003+08:00

I have been so busy with school. I think my blog is going to be idle for a while. I really can't stand my sis. She's super selfish! She can wake me up from my sleep just because she couldn't sleep and my phone rang twice. She wake me up to off my phone! Omg.. If it's me, I'll just do that myself.. And now, she's her com no batt., mine too. I had to switch off 4 a while to plug in mine. She can say her com very low batt and wants me to plug it back. She's super selfish. All she think about is herself, herself and herself!

Love Life~

Weird weird day

2010-01-28T22:30:00.003+08:00

Fell down in school today. It all happened too fast. I am not sure how I fell but I just ended up on the floor. Lucky I am already at the 2nd last step of the long flight of stairs to the canteen. But my leg is aching now. Cannot exert pressure. Maybe what Nas was saying today is right. Everything in life is destinated. Just like the uncle who was knock down by car at my area. He just died like this. He was still telling his daughter-in-law he was alright after the accident when the medics were attending to him. Tiring long day today. I am going to sleep!

Long long day..

2010-01-22T22:36:00.002+08:00

Woke up at 7am today just as it started raining. So forced myself to enjoy the nice weather to sleep by sleeping for an hour more. Dragged myself to prepare for school at 8am. Super nice weather to travel. =D I like rainy days! So was in purple for Nas! Happy 22th birthday! Then had lunch in school, had cupcake from Nas, met Shiling, had yuan yang at a HK cafe, watch 听说 while wanting to puke, shop for hours at orchard, met my sis and back home!

听说 is really nice! 彭于晏 is super handsome! First time I went for moive with Ling without any food or drinks. I bought crocs flip-flops! I am thinking of investing in an iphone.. Hmm.. Can't think le.. Tata~

It's so COOL!

2010-01-15T11:05:00.004+08:00

Do watch 2010-01-14 我愛黑澀棒棒堂: 誰才是新的亞洲舞王羅志祥!

Nightmare

2010-01-15T09:14:00.002+08:00

Thinking too much really make dreams. I dreamt of him yesterday, due to his reply. It's a super nightmare, coz I actuualy dreamt of him cheating on me. Why I already halfway moving on and all this had to happen all over again?

School is hectic currently. I am already flooded with assignments in this 1st week. I hope this sem will pass super soon. Coz I hate this sem.. Tata~ off to see them dance in bbt..

我最爱的蔡旻佑！

2010-01-08T09:50:00.001+08:00

Time for sleeping beauty to wake up

2010-01-06T22:36:00.002+08:00

Sleeping beauty didn't want to wake up because she's in such a nice dream. But one day, the dream turn out to be a nightmare, she had to wake up in fright. There's no prince and of course no kiss.

I hate the way I had to be normal and cherry in front of you. You are my dearest company, the people who loved me the most, the people who understand me the most. I like it when I spend time with you. You make me forget about all the unhappiness and that jerk. I just hate myself for being such a fool. Into the twenties and never getting any smarter..

虎牙納豆 - 藝人共舞

2010-01-05T11:50:00.000+08:00

意外和刚好

2010-01-05T09:57:00.003+08:00

原来偶像剧里的意外和刚好，在现实生活中是不存在的。不管你有多想，不管是第几次的偷偷哭泣，意外和刚好都不会发生。你不说出来，没有人会知道你的心里话，没有人会知道你有多想，多痛，流了多少泪。。。

如果我不说话，你要永远保持沉默吗？

It's a small small world..

2010-01-04T21:17:00.008+08:00

It's a wonder to see how your friends from two different groups are linked by this one stranger on facebook.

First "school day" of 2010 was greeted by a heavy downpour while I am trying hard to get back to sleep. (Hehe. Can't bear to not make use of the good weather, since it's my precious one week before school starts.) Have a fun time in school kids!

I love to take long walks and have the abundant time talking to my loved ones. This is what me and my sisters like to do. Yesterday I had long walks with my mei again. I think this is the second time in the holidays. I like it better when we all three sisters can spend this time together. (I know, I can't be selfish. My jie is super busy. But, I still can't control myself to stop missing her.) I went out with mama to do some shopping. It's kind of a torture. She just can't walk with me. I am tired. Off to let the music blast me off~

OMG! My small cousins are attending secondary school already. It's 10 years back since my 1st day of sec sch.. =X

Killing my brain cells..

2010-01-02T10:29:00.002+08:00

I am starting to think again, the purpose of my existance in this world. Sometimes, it may not be me who wants to go into my own world, but I am just forgotten and left behind alone. Maybe nobody remembers me, my gone=nothing.

我想要说。。

2009-12-26T21:39:00.005+08:00

我的蔡旻佑来到新加坡了！这会是他入伍前的最后一站，会等你回来哦~

Going to play badminton with my dearest cousins tomorrow, for their sake, I am going to miss meeting my Evan Yo. Am I great? I think so too.. Haha.. At last after a long wait, the mio person manage to get to my house to install mio tv. I have mio tv now. But it's nothing great as it's really useless, practically nothing to watch. I am really bored at home. There's nothing to do! Arghhh... going find shows to watch.. Tata~

Good stuffs to intro~

2009-12-15T13:26:00.002+08:00

蔡旻佑你看不到的天空

When will lollipop come to Singapore? Watching their recent concert in Guang Zhou, I am SO SO envious! I want to be near them too..

Anyway, here some stuffs to into~ Above, Evan's nice song. This MV has 鬼鬼。Other than that, 福气又安康 is a very nice show. Do watch. I am rotting at home these days. My sis having exams, I think I'm like having exams too. Nothing more to say at the moment. Shall go watch more shows~ Tata~

I almost forgot

2009-12-05T23:05:00.002+08:00

I almost forgot all about it. Happy 3rd birthday my dearest lollipop. Lollipop turns 3 on 02 dec. Wooooohoooo! Cheers to them and all the best to them for their concert in China, Guang Zhuo & BeiJing.. Still waiting for them to hold one in Singapore..

该放弃还是该更努力呢

2009-12-05T22:47:00.001+08:00

当你发现距离越来越远的时候，是该放弃还是该更努力呢？如果，你已经努力过了，是不是该放弃了？要努力到什么时候才是该放弃的时候呢？不是努力过就可以了吗？不是有努力就会成功吗？不是有努力就不会内疚吗？

那为什么我在放弃的时候，却感到内疚呢？小时候的童话故事，道德故事，都是骗人的！它们都不曾在这个世界里出现过~

寻找自己

2009-12-04T17:11:00.002+08:00

寻人启事

姓名：林美玲
年龄：21岁
身高：160多 cm
体重：40多 kg

她最爱粉红色和吉蒂猫，最爱和家人和朋友在一起的时光，最爱逛街和狂卖东西。如果你看到她的话，请把她送回家。因为，她正在寻找她自己。

Out with dearest lover~

2009-11-30T22:26:00.002+08:00

Went out with my dearest lover just now. We had a meal together & THANKS SO MUCH FOR THE TREAT! =D It has been more than half a year since we last met. Time really files. Ok. I will crack my brain and organise a gathering for S71 soon... Till then, I am going into my own world~ Tata~

I hate I hate....

2009-11-29T23:22:00.002+08:00

I hate it when they quarrel over little things. I hate it when they use me as the middle person. I hate it when I have to be uncomfortable at my own house. I hate I hate.. I hate lots of stuffs that happened today. I am so going to enjoy my day tomorrow!

I wana buy this. =D

2009-11-26T16:08:00.001+08:00

The end of the world

2009-11-25T22:42:00.003+08:00

What's the last thing you want to do if tomorrow is the end of the world?

I went to watch 2012 with Juile just now. Quite a great show that really make people think and ponder a lot. I am still thinking of the things that I want to do if tomorrow is the end if the world. The first thing that comes to my mind is, I want an answer from him. But, tomorrow is not the end of the world, so I will not get an answer from him. Haha.

Save the Earth and learn swimming. I don't want to be frighten when I die. I am crapping already.. Make-up and contacts removed, time to sleep~ Tata~

A nice show to intro

2009-11-24T21:47:00.001+08:00

下一站, 幸福

Date me~

2009-11-24T09:49:00.002+08:00

I am super free now. Have rotten enough at home, it's time to plan my shopping schedule. =D If you're free, date me! I am not going to waste my pathetic 1 month holiday. I am going to do lots and lots of stuffs.

Am watching bbt now, I think now I know why the mei mei all not popular, they reali a bit disgusting. *yucks!*

Ling's laptop spoilt, I think mine's dying too. Praying hard that it can survive 2 more years. Praying hard for my results and praying hard that mui mui project can get a home.

Off to finish my bbt~

Alone but heart is warm

2009-11-07T13:00:00.004+08:00

Yesterday, received 2 sms from my 2 lovely friends that super warmed my heart during this lonely times when I have to fight wars. 1 down, 6 more to go. Here saying a big HI to lover and flower, I miss you both infinity much too. Can't wait to get to spend time with you 2 weeks later. I am missing my friends.

I am home alone now. Going for my dearest sis convocation later. Congrats to her for getting a 2nd class honours! Going to do my make-up. Must be pretty in the photos. =D

Rush rush rush...

2009-10-29T23:20:00.002+08:00

What has life become when I have to rush and rush and rush and rush, trying my best to complete everything at the shortest time possible? I am real tired. So hope I can just slow down and take a break. I feel like going to the beach. So long since I last went to the beach. Hmmm.. I think the last time was during my birthday. Ok. I am off to study.

I hate crowded trains and brisk walking people who block my way.

My theory

2009-10-25T17:57:00.003+08:00

When you like someone, there's always a reason, because you can don't like someone for reasons too. When you love someone, there's no reason. Because you cannot don't love someone, but can only end up hating the someone.

I am home alone now. Talking over msn with wy and ling. I still have a pile of work to be done. I just can't settle down and focus on them. Help!! Going off to print notes.. Tata~

Tortured。Pain。Ill

2009-10-24T09:20:00.004+08:00

I wanted to enjoy some time with my family, but god just don't want to give me the chance. I ended up feeling unwell and had to go home, dragging my very unhappy sis along. I am so so sorry and sad. Went for tui na again yesterday and is still feeling super pain now. I hope all these will end soon and a new Madeleine will be born.

After a long long wait, at last I received this! Thanks my dearest girl. =D

"You should’ve just told me the truth

I wasn’t the girl for you

Still I didn’t have a clue

Cause my heart depended on you

Though I say I hate you now

Though I shout and curse you out

Ill always have love for you

Because I am a girl"

我又做了蠢事

2009-10-22T22:44:00.003+08:00

我又做了蠢事，还以为会有奇迹出现，但始终还是没有。可是，如果我可以从这件蠢事中得到教训，让我觉悟，这件事也许就没这么蠢了吧~ 我觉悟了。我不玩了，我走了。

如果的如果

2009-10-21T08:35:00.002+08:00

如果失去的总是最好的，让你尝到失去，你会后悔吗？

Have not been doing things well recently. I am starting to hate myself. I am trying to find Madeleine back in me. It's time I start mugging. I have not been doing well in school. A ultra virus is spreading at home. I think I am getting it too. Please go away. I can't fall sick.

P.S. 好想和你分享我的乐与苦，但还是做不到。我痛苦时，你知道吗？

Time to come out of dreamland

2009-10-17T23:35:00.003+08:00

Happy times pass super fast, days like minutes. The 2 events which I so looked forward to are over.. Just back from Gerald 21st birthday party. Ya, had a hard time trying to dress cute. It's time to wake up from happy dreams. Assignments, tests, revision, exams, here I come. Went to have manicure today, at last I get to pamper myself. Off to sleep~

P.S. Dreamt of you again yesterday. I think I miss you.

Bad things are happening

2009-10-15T22:08:00.002+08:00

Have been having lots of negatives thoughts flooding in my mind. Seems like I can't control my mind anymore. I have not been myself since yesterday, don't know why, but I have a bad feeling. Something bad is going to happen. I hope I can find Madeleine back soon enough. I hope Daddy's stuffs will settle in a good way soon.

P.S. Have not had a meal with my sis for a long long time..

洪詩&鮪魚 - 雙人熱舞表演(我愛黑澀棒棒堂首播)

2009-10-13T17:14:00.000+08:00

我愛黑澀棒棒堂8分鐘`搶先看

2009-10-11T00:28:00.000+08:00

Miracles NEVER happen

2009-10-06T21:23:00.001+08:00

Waiting for you is like waiting for miracles. In my heart, I know that it will never happen, but how I still keep hoping and wishing that it will happen. When it really happened, I'll be all too happy to remember how long I had waited for this one chance.

Went for "tui na" again today, my second session and it's still super pain. Lots of stuffs coming up, I'll be real busy. Hope all the work can keep my mind occupied and not think too much about stupid stuffs.

Great Disappointment

2009-10-02T21:10:00.002+08:00

So it's confirmed, 棒棒堂&黑涩会will combine. But lollipop will not be joining them. Only choc7 is joining, my energy support will not come back. Hope they will faster faster come Singapore hold their concert.

P.S. No matter how unwilling, I have to let go. I know I'll end up with lots of regrets, but this is the time I learn and grow.

Wooo Hooooo

2009-09-28T14:20:00.002+08:00

Great news! Is my lollipop coming back to channel v? OMG! My energy support. I hope it's true.. =D Andy is making a wise choice. Can't wait for 5oct!

Bad bad day

2009-09-24T21:31:00.010+08:00

Bad bad day, rant and forget all about it!!! Today is a super black day. Promised myself I'll wake up at 2am to do my assignment, but ended up sleeping till the morning. Had to rush through my assignment in the morning. Was on my way early to school and receive my friend's sms, telling me the method may be wrong. I had no choice but to hand in what I have as I had no more time to edit and I still had 2 parts not done. So rushed through the 2 parts in school and went for Mat Lab lecture. Was there 15 mins early. The lecturer wanted to start his lecture, but ended up lecturing us for being late and always talking. Saying that we are the worst batch. He scolded for 15 mins and left the leacture hall. In my mind, "why am I scolded?" The rest of the day didn't go well too. Got back my calculus quiz and I got the lowest of all. Had really stupid mistakes. I really suspect that my mind was not working at all at that time. I am really disappointed with myself. I'll mug and mug and mug and mug.. No more fb, nds and phone.. No more shopping, tv and com too..

Just one day and so much things happened. So in total of 4 days, how much things can happen and where are you all this time? I am really feeling more and more confused.

Efforts gone down to the drains

2009-09-20T22:12:00.002+08:00

If you are not willing to make a little effort, no matter how much effort I tried to put in, it will also end up being useless. So why you want to start it in the first place?

I am stranded, who can help me? I am sinking into my pile of work and my brain is not willing to coperate with me. Ok, I am almost halfway into my essay. Cheers on that! I will work hard, since it's a topic I like, but I hate all the referencing and citations.

I'm off and pissed off..

I decided to come back..

2009-09-19T08:44:00.002+08:00

Hello! I am still not used to livejournal, so I have decided to shift back. Live has been torturing for me. The assignments, presentation and test. Why it's still not recess week?! I am going crazy soon. My life is in a mess now, all thanks to someone. Shall not talk more. Will update on recess week, which is coming soon and I already have all days filled with work to do. =X off to watch 终极三国~

Shifted

2009-08-10T12:15:00.001+08:00

New add: http://princessberries.livejournal.com/

Super nice performance by 1/2 lollipop

2009-07-30T00:16:00.000+08:00

Abstract

2009-07-30T00:11:00.002+08:00

Post taken from myspace, 24 July 21:55
Title: I don't mind paying a little more for good service

Today I went to buy some stuffs, the shop auntie is super nice! She smiles at me and give me discount also. Haha. I will sure go back to her shop again, though another shop will sell cheaper stuffs. I don't mind paying a little more, she makes me HAPPY. So I went to Sentosa yesterday with Julie and Tamara. Something not very nice happened, no details till I settle with it. I will upload the photos soon. =D 模范棒棒堂 going to end next wednesday. I am super sad! My energy source is going to be gone. PLease come to Singapore for concert soon lollipop. I am waiting for you! I rot for the whole of today. Shall go shopping after tuition tomorrow. Off to watch shows.. O ya. This marks my first blog entry here! (Blogger is having some problems.) Tata~

一棵大树会住着多少生物呢？

2009-07-19T23:04:00.002+08:00

今天在回家的路上，抬头看见了一棵大树，不禁想着：“这棵树到底是多少生物的家呢？”

Today is a super long but meaningful day! =D I always love spending time with my family. I think I only have them now, starting to wonder where all my friends gone to.. =X After brunch, I went Ikea with cousin Adeline and 3rd aunt. We shop shop there, then we went to eat KFC at a near-by shopping center (I don't know what's the name) and we did some shopping there. So after being a little crazy and spending some crazy time with them (only I went crzy, guess I was just too tired), I came home. I think I only managed to sit down for 10 minutes and I went out again to amk central with mama & papa. Jie met us there for dinner and we did shopping. I bought more chocolates. (Oh! I thought I am on diet and aiming for less than 45kg??!!) So that's my super long day and it's ending with a shocking news that cousin Eileen's bag got stolen in church. The whole bag was gone and only hers was gone. I hope she don't get too upset or shock over it. Praying that after this, better things will come for her and parying that mama will get well soon with her cough. Off to shower and sleep~

我的棒棒堂没有对嘴！

Holiday RESUMED~

2009-07-17T23:53:00.006+08:00

Something to share: found my teddys in this chaotic positions. (Was there a war or earthquake previously??)

Mei mei showered, papa showered, I showered and followed by mama showered. Haha. A cute family (Jie still out with her darling) showered, one after another and everyone is having the same scent now. Peach bath! My favourite and special requested by me to purchase the bath. It really makes your skin feel soft and smooth. (haha. Not trying to promote for them, but if you want you can try it.)

Yay! My practicum ended. After the super long 5 days in a secondary school, I survived! Holidays are resumed, 3 more weeks to go before school starts.

Breakfast from ling, for my 1st day practicum in sec school. (was super unwilling to go then~)

Last sunday, we went out as a family. I think it has been a long time since we did that. I was really happy! I am quite upset over jie. Her darling and friends are important to her now, at times I really hope I am among that category.

I can't stand any longer. Waking up at 5 plus every morning is a torture!! I am going to sleep..

Good morning class~

2009-07-08T15:53:00.002+08:00

不要为错过的绿灯感到难过，因为错过了这个绿灯，才可以自在下个绿灯成为第一名。

Practicum practicum.. I'm getting kind of bored~

我在学着做个自私的人

2009-07-06T14:58:00.003+08:00

一个人从出生到死亡，会遇见3万个人: 3千个是朋友和同事，而只有3百个是亲近交谈过的。

棒棒堂香港《我是传奇》演唱会圆满成功！演唱会真的好精彩哦~我没有机会到现场去，但很谢谢那些上载他们演唱会的影片。棒棒堂，你们几时来新加坡呢？哈哈，我已把他们所有的歌都放进我的mp3了，为他们来新加坡开演唱会时准备，准备和他们合唱所有的歌！

Fate?

2009-07-01T18:09:00.003+08:00

I am back home. Met up with Julie (thanks for the lovely pressie and card!!) just now at amk hub once again. We chatted lots and it's really nice spending time with a close friend. I am happy and at last I feel that I am doing something useful again. I forgot to bring my camera and we did not take any photos. =( We will be going for a underwater world date after our practicum. (Will make up for all the missed photos then.) 加油for us both and all NIE year 1 for the practicum.

Yesterday night, I read Charmaine's blog till 2am. It was really sad and aching to know about a little girl, so young and she has to face so much pain and terror. Praying hard for her to recover soon and praying for miracles to happen and I believe it will as Charmaine will be brave to live on for the sake of her mum and kor kor.. 加油Charmaine! For those who will like to help and knoe more about Charmaine you can click on the image below.

My right ring finger is very pain. I am not sure how I hurt it, but I am now unable to write as it is very pain when I hold a pen and exert pressure. I am bored once again~ Going to watch more shows.

Recommendation: Circus Action 4 (begins 4th july 9pm on channel [V] )

小朋友吵架 (Intro by 小鬼）

2009-06-23T23:23:00.001+08:00

A happy or sad morning?

2009-06-22T09:53:00.005+08:00

I was showing off my new album to my sister, then there came fire engine and police car sirens a distance away. I continue showing my album, then the sirens came nearer, I commented, "they got the wrong way?" My sister replied, "is come our house here la!" So the firemen and policemen are busy now at my house here the carpark. I am not sure what happened, but it seems serious. My mama ask me to go check what happen, she say if not we need run, no time pack things. Haha~

Back to my album!! =D I got 《我是传奇》！Hot from taiwan, 2 days after their release. Thanks to my sis friend for buying it back for me. Not going to share the content with you. I am going to enjoy it~

P.S. They went off, looks like is 虚惊一场~

梦与现实的区别

2009-06-19T20:45:00.002+08:00

当梦与现实已分不清楚的时候，这代表了什么呢？我该怎么办呢？在我的世界里，梦与现实已融合在一起了。有些时候，我会把记忆归类到不对的类型。我好想从我的世界，我的梦，走出来哦！谁来救救我？我真得好苦~

P.S. 想恋着姐姐呢~

I got it~

2009-06-17T16:33:00.003+08:00

Stupid internet is running super slowly. Haha.. So I always cannot resist over the power of what I want and I bought it. So I bought the camera and mummy still don't n=know about it or she'll kill me. (She doesn't know about lots of my stuffs anyway.) I'll use it if I go have dinner with ling and maybe wei later.
So I did half a day of cleaning. Packing and cleaning my house is a torture. But I really cannot stand my house being so messy. So I also helped sis to pack her room. She gona owe me 100 man.. Off to watch bbt~ I am sleepy in this weather..

我是傳奇

2009-06-16T08:43:00.001+08:00

Diet

2009-06-15T21:58:00.003+08:00

OMG! I had 3 meals today, with ice-cream. I am going to cut down on my eating before I get fat again. Bread with nutella, Kimchi ramen with fish cakes, Rice with seafood soup and fried oyster egg.. I really like all my meals today, the best is kimchi ramen with fish cakes! Tomorrow is another day of tuition. Have to wake up early to get to tuition at 10am. Then I'll go do some shopping! =D

I am aiming for this!

F4 After Story

2009-06-09T22:52:00.002+08:00

Big spender

2009-06-09T15:39:00.002+08:00

Hahaha.. I spent 100 bucks in a few hours. I think it's only at most 2 hours. =X Shopping is too tempting. I want to buy everything! O ya.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY DORCAS! I'm off to watch bbt~

故事再难过，我也会学着去享受

2009-06-08T10:51:00.001+08:00

因为你，我才来到这个世界。我是因为谁而来到这个世界呢？

该不该？

2009-06-07T12:59:00.003+08:00

棒棒堂《我是传奇》专辑要在6月19日发行咯~姐姐的朋友真的不能在台湾帮我买吗？我不想一直抱着空希望。在网页上看到有人提供台湾专辑预购，我该预购吗？好期待棒棒堂的专辑和赠品哦~上一张专辑太期待了，结果被sembawang骗了，这次就不要上当了。。。

爸爸昨天奇怪地问我：“你又剪头发啊？”

等等，等等。。。

2009-06-04T12:09:00.001+08:00

亲爱的小薇

2009-06-02T23:53:00.002+08:00

今天又到小薇家串门子了。和她在一起真好，我看的戏她都有看，和她交谈，我们就像同一个世界的人，我说什么她都懂，都能接，不用我多解释。好了，缩短讲我的故事。如此如此，这般这般。。。期待明天看野兽吃汉堡~

Choc7超克7-等什麼MV

2009-06-02T13:46:00.000+08:00

一切都是谎言

2009-06-01T23:22:00.002+08:00

真的只要努力就行了吗？你错了！这一切的一切都是谎言！不管我怎么努力，我还是输给别人，和他们的距离也越来越遥远。我该怎么办？谁能来告诉我要怎么做？就让我这样一直睡着吧。。。

如果我变成回忆

2009-05-31T22:32:00.005+08:00

如果我变成回忆，可以让我回来这世界一秒，看看这世界是否因为我而改变。

好开心今天又和亲爱的表姐弟妹聚在一块了，期待的一天就这样瞬间的消失了。好希望能常常这样聚在一块，谈谈无聊的话题，做做无聊的事。

我好累了，不写了。送你可爱的我吧。晚安！

Choc7超克7-太青春MV

2009-05-20T11:15:00.000+08:00